Recurring Funerals ...

Share it while it tastes best in your head. Definition of best relative and subject to change. First things first: Ponko sucks. We've established that essentially. I can never have my circadian rhythms back. The concert on friday was smashing, but i'm way too overworked ... and the chip on the moonshine? Not kool.

I'm numbed by loss now. I'll just wait for the emotions to bullet train back if they should find a crevice to do so. I dont want to get monkeyed anymore.

Mesh " because you cannot expect things from anybody, everybodys an @%%&@le"
We have established that havent we?

Mesh "somethings you just cannot say out loud"
Yes, i know.

First I told most people and then Mesh about Gloomy Sunday, the suicide monger song. (You can find 5 versions of it here, go for the Billie Holiday one for maximum wrist-slashing incentive) .

And THEN i recommend the "Virgin Suicides" to Mesh.

Mesh " Come out and say it, you want me dead dont u? munky"

Read the reference of suicide to Gloomy Sunday here. NOW infidel!

rebel, sweetheart says:
"and all her hot jewelry too threw the hoes off"

mesh "we're brainless idiots"
No we're quite brainy.

mesh "well, we're emotionally dead"
No we feel WAY too much.

Constraints. Lamer.


rebel, sweetheart says:
"one of those days
where u shower
and still feel icky
that 'not so fresh' feeling"

Ahh, indeed, that not so fresh feeling. Its whats been tugging on my ever pressing suicide anyway. I realize i should slowly inject band inklings here ... hmmm ... maybe tommorow ... i.e. if orthoclear doesent go "live". Argh. But haven't I been known to take the slightest of crevices and turn them into corridors of confirmity ? We'll live to see ...