This bliss .... then the distortion

(This sleep remains a part of this beautiful mess ...)
I hate waking up these days; its utterly the bland realization of this palpable feeling of total resolute emptiness ... and distance ...

(The distance between here & above is measured through self and not fame ... )
And I crave for the measure, perhaps the last stretch seemed near ... how long, how far? And then the catapult slaps a rape on your face, in the form of a dream ...

(I dreamt I was a satellite in the orbit of her arms and it was warm but it wasn't long till I woke up alone ... )
So I slept, and so I awoke ... revive my resign again.

(Lost between you and me and everyone less shy of letting life pass them by ... )



I found my old spiral book. These parenthesis excerpts are from songs/poems found in that ...

(In the circus that has lured her away from me
I play the part where everything has started not to be
Although you are painted in the brilliance of bright sun-lit days
I have waited forever in shadows to rectify my misery)
( untitled #57 - spiral notebook )

A couple of more songs written, a couple recorded. Next post should carry the bop-grungy-rock Many Yellow Days ditty.

In the corner of the former
Writing letters to make words
No denials no surrender
Just a very fragile world
( only sirens - dye corduroy )

Solace in ... solace out

Lots of catching up to do ...

New songs lying around, they shall be up soon. Yousaf and Amna got engaged, congrats guys. MAQ ! ! ! He's hitched now ! Meeting up with Jafri and Salma was kool. Nazi-processing of the FCPS application done, finished today. All documents in order for once. Feh. I'm reaaaaallly old now arent I ?


Lots of pics to share so essentially lots of photoblogs coming up.

Have you ever waited for something sooo long .... and yet never given up? But recollection becomes obsession ... and obsession gets erratically displeasing. Wisdom, then, is the only saving grace? feh. And everything you learn is everything you've lost. So why have I learnt so much then?

The snake dream was NOT nice, the ending of it WAS though.


« f ( x ) » says:
cd jalti. thori dair tak daiti.
a d i L / sponge the miracle says:
okee
a d i L / sponge the miracle says:
thankus
a d i L / sponge the miracle says:
u always burn at the bloggest of moments
a d i L / sponge the miracle says:
thus the mention u earn

legend: « f ( x ) » = waisee poo.


till tommorow night, i beg leave.

Drowning in the Brevity ...

Blekh.

4 new songs done, all mixed and sitting pretty in my hard drive waiting to be upped. Soon Mildred, soon ...

The last one that I've just finished is called "jang" and the interwoven music part turned out much bigger than I expected, quite the aural soundscape. Someone suggested it deserves an instrumental release as well ... anywho, there is a "jang part deux" which was originally part of the song but will now be a separate track, essentially a response ... aspiration of sort to the murky and quite miserable part I.

Other than this, Falak, Kaalee Raatein and Many Yellow Days are awaiting the bus ride to cyberphuckcity.

I got a promotion, whoop dee doo. The Counting Crows' Long December has been playing in my head for quite a bit now, perhaps the California reference ... Saadia thinks that Adam Kadleck reminded me of Adam Duritz but that's not the case, but Adams' California roots did stir up thoughts of a lot of songs with California references, also my own Emily Wells ode Emily Faraway. Then I go on to see OC which has my favorite Cali. reference song as the title theme: Phantom Planet's California. LOVE the song to pieces. Topping it all Rufus' Waniwrights' California also played in the second episode I think ... and I've been hooked on to OC, obviously its all about Cali.

Oh, Waisee Poo burnt more goodies for me :) (FYI - that nick gave birth to itself, all good music providing and kool ppl become "-ee poos" in mine and saadias mentions) Finally managed to find the Dresden Dolls. Poochie went erratically devious on one spin of "Coin operated Boy". Lets keep the dresdens away from her for a bit eh?

Lots of events looming round the corner, MAQ's getting hitched, YouseeKoosee and Amna are getting engaged-type-thing and ofcourse mk's birthday ... which reminds me, did we miss KK's birthday? I knew it was a pre birthday bash but WAS there a bash? Feh. I need to be good to my car again ... the aliens that hid underwater need to die or come out already ...

*the amazing problem solving brevity of Waisee-poo*

a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
dude, the bigbrutha inda hood
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
whenever i try to charge a case it gives me that underlying connection closed error
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
any idea wot the dealio is?
« symmetric chaos » says:
yeah. IT