Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Write in Blood ... Dip in Hope ....


You spend light years detailing your world
& another day polishing the pearls
You turn around for a moment but
All your kindgom crumbles at the sight of a girl

You stand still & let wander your gaze
You recollect all the lines you erased
You make a killing yet still unwilling
You migrate to wishful meadows to graze

& what a life does she promise?
What infinite mounds of felicity ...
Where you may sip the drink of bliss
What reverence you dream of; what velocity!

You write in blood & dip in hope
Your hands inept, your mind eloped
You drag the world all to her feet
You feel her slowly envelope

She looks to and then looks away
A passing word, she tends to say
You think her diamond, she judges you coal
She blossoms into your goddess of dismay

& the castles that you raised
Come crashing down in this cavalcade
Such is love, dear fragile self
& such is hell through which you must wade
___________________

Poem from my as yet unpublished book "Dirty Street-lites"

Friday, June 24, 2005

Annotational Baggage ...

Its been ages since i blogged ... i know ... and MUCH has fallen, much has burnt. Sickness, virility, a split second of felicity, many old demos and many new songs later: here I am.

Blekh.

Burn, Burnt, Burntest


Hmm ... my tumultuous relationship with my song "falak" hit all sorts of new lows and highs. Anyhow, we settled the D out of court and I managed to finally make an eccentric mix of the song that does some sort of justice to the many layers of pure blatant misery and arrogance that the song enshrouded itself with. Expect that to be up in the next post.

It is so unbelievably HOT ... ( the weather, not anything much otherwise ) I cannot recall any summer in my WHOLE life being this hot ... and there is supposedly a water crisis, and the motherloving WAPDA have been tripping quicker and quirkier than the crystal method. Conditions are getting muchly inhabitable. Time to hitch a quasar out of here.


Apna Song Featured and Publicized Shamelessly: Dye Corduroy - Hum Hain Inquilaab (download-rightclick saveas)

twang grunge


This one was recorded in 2004, early 2004. It deals with how personal and at the same time public/social your drive for a change, some sort of a coup', some meaningful intervention can be. Yet the realization that even though the road we've been forced to drive on is the same for everyone, the judgment of wrong and right, the bliss in ignorance and the pain in wisdom, the difference in this all is blatantly see-thru. So the roads the same, but the destination different. And yet we ARE the revolution, feh, not. Just a mere mirage of it. We'd WISH we were it. The real deal, but we've got a long way to go.
Lyrics:

Tayrey Mayrey Raaston Mein Hain
Jitney Raastey Utnay Kaantay
Tayree Mayree Manzilein Hain Juda
Duubtee Sehar Kay Bikhray Saanchey

Hum Hain Inquilaab;
Ka Jhoota Saraab
Hum Hain Inquilaab.

Tayrey Har Azam Kee Taqdeerain
Dhull Gayee Hain Iss Siyaahee Mein
Tayree Yay Khanaktee Zanjeerain
Khwab Kheenchtee Hain Taabeerain

Hum Hain Inquilaab;
Ka Jhoota Saraab
Hum Hain Inquilaab.

Hum Hain Woh Azaan
Jo Hai La-Zubaan
Hum Hain Lamaqaam
Ikk Toota Armaan

Hum Hain Inquilaab.


random blogworthy semi-incidents:

n u said nothin at al; wel i culdntve said it beter myself 2nigt da conversation takes da fal just luv me like u luv nobody else says:
itni fazool thi
n u said nothin at al; wel i culdntve said it beter myself 2nigt da conversation takes da fal just luv me like u luv nobody else says:
adhi urdu mein thi
n u said nothin at al; wel i culdntve said it beter myself 2nigt da conversation takes da fal just luv me like u luv nobody else says:
i didnt get much of it
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
woah
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
sex in urdu is still sex ....



PERSPECTIVE ! CONTEXT ! That's all I ask off you fiends.

Me and Rahemiin - About to play quickdraw


Oh news flash: Rahemiin (not a typo) *finally* realizes she shud contribute to the band. *KUTTAY KAB SEY TUMHEIN KEH RAHOO HOON* *buss sweater* *nervous giggle*

Anyhow, we shall overcome! AND thus put down "Bhulaana Na" and "Pyaase Zameen / Kaaley Baadal" *combine yousaf dissing session: notable incompatibility with alternarock posturing, reference: yousaf heard screaming Pyaasay KaalleeAAaaaaAaaeeeYYyy at random dye corduroy concerts* Watch this space for follow/fuckups.

*she keeps staring at me writing this: her excuse, "mujhey shugar ho gaya hai, jaisey Ross ko ho gaya tha"*


Mohammad Ponko Khan !!! You blauuddyy !

the mohammad the ponko the khan


say hello to the angels says:
finally
say hello to the angels says:
i GET occlusion!
say hello to the angels says:
feh
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
DONT FEH ME
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
i work
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
i earn
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
i sweat
a d i L / decibels of this disenchanting discourse says:
.
say hello to the angels says:
suhhveet
say hello to the angels says:
my butt hurts

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

The Profound Death of Self

Argh.
We cannot tear out a single page of our lives, but we can throw the whole book in the fire.
I know all these things. I profess them at times as well. Change is the only constant. All good things must come to an end. Happiness makes up in height what it lacks in length. But it sinks in, ever so gently yet spares no synapse ... it aches. They say you hurt and hurt and hurt and hurt and hurt and then you become numb ... what happens when past that? When you've been numb and now are hurting again, and since you were numb you weren't expecting to experience it again. Again and again and again. The bad thorn in your side, it never really went away ... the sun never really did stop beating down on you ... you just passed away for a bit. Such spins the carousel of disdain and defeat.
Outside looking in ...
My defense becomes my rhetoric at times. My innate urge to die beautifully, or kill fearlessly, or breathe masterfully ... feh, it consumes me. The gravity of all around me; of the mere acknowledgment that empathy, sincerity and expectations bring weights me down. Just what is with this insatiable need of everyone around me to win? Every little way, every argument, every kissing game, every show and tell, every drive, every runaround, every engagement, every instance? Carnal. How I lust for a little ignorance so that it may bring a little bliss.
But essentially it always will be: Your redemption, my penance.

Leave, left, left


My friends were enemies upon stilts with their heads in a cunning cloud?

I feel an era is about to end ... leaving ... never easy eh? It has not *mesh*ed in yet....